Engaged and Week 8!

I got my engagement ring yesterday, and it is PERFECT. The diamond came from my mom, which means every time I look at it I think both of her and of the love of my life. It really makes the wedding feel more real as I continue diligently planning for it. My wedding dress is hidden in Cassie's closet, 2 of my bridesmaids have their dresses, and I call to rent the hall on Tuesday morning!
Nathan is being so good about it, he's excited too which makes it even better. Plus he's excited to incorporate Disney into it as well!
And itty biddy keeps on growing! This week she'll be the size of a large raspberry and developing more and more every day. However, since it's my body that's creating hers I'm exhausted all the time. She makes me super super sleepy sometimes, but I should get my energy back in the second trimester. Of course the real downfall is morning sickness, I hate feeling sick while sitting through 2 hour lectures. But I know it isn't itty biddy's fault, it just isn't really fun for me.

Soon enough will be my first doctors appointment and ultrasound! That's exciting, then, as I keep mentioning, the heartbeat. Oh and then before I know it I'll be able to feel her kick and flip and move! I hope she's an active baby =)

And I really feel the need to mention that I love how supportive my friends are. My real friends at least lol. They keep reminding me that I'll be a good mommy and that I can do this. Oh, and they let me know that they will help. And spoil.

Well, that's all for now, I'll update again soon!

Itty Biddy Week 7

Now starts week 7 of itty biddy's existance and she (i'm using she because it's better than writing he/she or especially "it" every time I want to talk about baby) is about the size of a blueberry! Of course, I've gotten a little bit of a bump considering she's that tiny still, but apparently she's about 10,000 times bigger than when she was first conceived.

So below is the bump at week 7, and my goal is to take pictures every week so I can see how big itty biddy gets. In about 3 weeks we should be set for the first ultrasound and to be able to see and hear itty biddy's heartbeat for the first time! I really can't wait for that, I think it'll make it all seem so much more real. Right now I keep looking at my tummy in sort of disbelief, it's hard to believe that there's a human life in there!

Moving Forward More and More!

It's been a week and a half since I found out about itty biddy. I'm feeling the symptoms of her/him a little more now, but no morning sickness yet! *knocks on wood*

So, while planning the future and nathan and i were figuring everything out, we decided to get married! So now i'm diving into wedding planning, and completely adoring it! Not that I have to justify myself, but I will anyway, Nathan and I aren't getting married BECAUSE of itty biddy, we're just getting married SOONER because of itty biddy! I have already decided my colors and started figuring out details! It looks like the wedding will be December 3, and it is going to be amazing. I went wedding dress shopping for the first time yesterday!

Readjusting to an Itty Biddy!

Yep, I'm expecting an itty biddy one now!
I found out on Monday morning, and it was just a touch shocking. Nathan and I are having a little one join our family in April. It took 2 full days for it to truly sink in, and in those two days we had to tell all the soon-enough-to-be-grandparents because we were home. It was scary! We had to explain over and over that we were both going to finish school, that we had a plan to make it work, that it was going to be fine, and that we were happy about it. I know this is not the "ideal" time to become a mother, but at the same time, I don't believe that there is a perfect time. Parenting is never going to be easy, it's just easier when you're more settled in careers and homes.

The more time passes and the more accustomed to the idea that I become, the more excited it get. In about 5 weeks we should *hopefully* be able to hear the baby's heartbeat!

No Time to Write!

Well, with all three of these jobs I've really lost the time I used to have to write! Which is such a pity because I love writing so much.

Things have been going pretty well. Well, one of my roomates had a freak out, decided she didn't want to live with me anymore, and up and moved out. Which means my new task is to replace her so we can afford to keep living here without having to break the lease. But, even though it's put us in a tough spot for now, I'm actually happier that she's gone. Things are less dramatic and tense in the house, it's a laid back happy place to be now which is all I wanted from the beginning.

Lifeguarding is amazing, I love being outside and getting to swim and play on the diving board and water slides. I enjoy it and I'm making new friends which is always a bonus. Otherwise I really haven't been up to much. I spend most of my time working at one job or another and my downtime is spent with Cassie and my love.

Tomorrow I actually have a full day off from all three jobs so we're going up to Richmond to see Pirates of the Carribbean 4 and go out to lunch and go shopping. That's the best part about 3 jobs, I actually have a little bit of money to finally do some shopping and not constantly freak out about money. It's such a great place to be.

Well, I'll try to write again soon, but I hope everyone is having a great summer!

Nightmares

So for the last week I keep having those nightmares. You know the ones. You wake up heart racing, tears threating, and that conviction that it really happened.
Last week it was a threat to my love and my parents. And I couldn't save them both, I had to choose one or the other and the last thing that happened before I awoke? A gunshot. Aimed at me.
Horrifying, right? No wonder I couldn't go back to sleep.

Last night wasn't much better. I was pregnant, several months along, and had a giant huge belly that I constantly kept my hand over to protect. I was in jail by mistake, and scared to death, but then I went to the doctor and found out that my baby was dead.

I have no idea where these are coming from, no idea what they signify, and if they're warnings then I don't want to leave my house anytime soon. But I just can't understand what's going on. Normally I have some strange dreams, or ones that upset me a little bit, but I've never had truly terrible nightmares all so close together.

Any suggestion on how to get rid of them? Cause right now they're messing with my sleep cycle a little bit.

Love, Life, Lack of Time

Hello all!

So the weeks I feared have arrived. Everything is currently overlapping.

1.) My EDS 355 class, which is waking up at 5:30am and getting home at 4:30pm, is ongoing.
The plus side? I adore it, I love my kids and getting to learn more about Islam at the same time.

2.) Me the museum curator! When I'm not in Lexington for class, I spend my time at the Appalachian Center on campus assisting to create an exhibit on Appalachian literature. Not on is it really fascinating, it's also very hands on and comes with a lot of freedom, which i completely adore. I'm working with new poetry, fiction, and theater and tying it to artifacts.

3.) The internship for the Kentucky Women Writers conference *http://www.uky.edu/WWK/* which is just one day a week and has me reading new authors and new poets giving me more experience in literature, writing, and hopefully even in education when it comes time for the conference in September.

4.) Saving lives! Yep, lifeguard assessment, training etc is underway. Monday evening I spent two hours in the pool remembering my rescues etc. It was a lot to remember since I got my certification over a year ago. But I did pretty well and I'm excited for the pool to open so I can get to work work. I'll be there full time this summer, plus still doing the internship and hopefully 5 hours a week as a curator still.

So, yep, my life has gone crazy busy, but I can't really complain. I love all the new experiences and new excitement that are happening!

Hope summer is starting off well for everyone else! Es-salaam Alikuum