Happy Easter

Just wanted to post and tell everyone that I hope you're having a wonderful Easter, however you decided to spend it =)

I spent a calm day with my friends, and I'm truly thankful that the week coming up is the last of classes <3

Easter Surprises!

Today is going a bit more swimmingly than yesterday, probably because I finally made the decision that I'm not going to make an effort for the people who don't make an effort for me.
Therefore, I can stop feeling so miserable and downhearted, because I'll surround myself with those willing to take the time to help lift me up.

So, today I arrived at work, expecting just another dull day, and on my desk I found the most adorable little easter basket filled with noms =)

The picture quality is terrible because I took it with my phone, but the gesture still means just as much.

And the whole thing really got me thinking, if little things like this make me smile so much and make me so happy, why not do it for some others who could use a little joy too?

So next time I'm feeling sad, or un-included, I'm going to throw myself into project mode instead of wasting my time being unhappy. Cause there's no real logic to being sad, it doesn't really help anyone including me, so let's focus on being happy =)

Not So Optimistic

So I've started to get a bit afraid of my own mind lately.
I used to be really strong, I mean I've always been able to handle whatever life decided to throw my way, but lately it's been not so great.

Maybe I'm exaggerating, but I'm starting to feel out of place in my own friend group. Truly. And I've no idea how to fix it at all.
My roomate, who has been close to me absolutely forever, suddenly doesn't want to spend any time with me whatsoever. Normally at night we hang out in our room and watch TV, talk, relax. And this week since we're moving into our home, I figured that we'd spend tons of time together moving in. However, it's not just that she's been busy, anytime she's been free she's gone out with everyone else in our friend group. Usually without me.
I tried to ask her to spend some time with me, I explained that I've been feeling lonely and neglected, but somehow that's done nothing to make her want to spend any more time with me.

The issue is, I don't know what else to do to make this any better. I've tried so hard, I've talked to her and everyone else about how I've been feeling neglected and un-included, and even that I'm starting to think I'm becoming depressed, but nothing seems to be helping.

I just wish I knew that I had someone other than Nathan that really cares about me and loves me. Because I'm really not good right now and I could use a couple real friends to hang out with and spend time with.
I could use some compassion, and someone to listen to me and tell me that it's all gonna be okay. Because it's hard enough with things go dreadfully wrong (chronic pain, TEP, stress, finances, and depression) but without a close group of friends to help see you through? It looks a lot more impossible...

Sorry to be such a downer, I needed somewhere to post my feelings and I don't have anyone else to listen, so if you made it all the way through this post, thanks for your patience

Home Is Where the Heart Is

I've spent the weekend moving into my new home, organizing, setting up, and I spend my first night there on Saturday night. Of course, right now I'm back on campus because we're not quite ready to permanently move in. We still need some basic furniture, oh and internet. That's really important to get homework done.

But I thought I'd add some pictures because I'm so excited about having my own house <3
There will be more to come, especially once I start gardening!

Kitchen:

Bathroom:

My Room! =)

More updates to come, particularly when I actually have some time on my hands. Only two more weeks of school to get through, then it's sweet summertime <3

Falling Apart

Well, my worlds seems to be falling apart right now. But I wanted to share a couple little things that have still managed to make me smile

A quick life update

Well my roomate's Junior Vocal Recital was this weekend, and while it was stressful at times, it was also amazing!
Ali was GORGEOUS and having her whole family here was quite fun =)

I took a lot of pictures, which I thought I'd share.

And, my biggest responsibility, aside from keep Ali away from stress, was the reception afterward. I took some pictures of it finished product, and I was told that if this whole teaching thing fails I could always consider a career as an event planner instead. I almost considered it because I'm very much a perfectionist,

and I really enjoyed putting everything together for Ali. We had a great variety of food (donated by family members) cupcake tiers rather than a cake, and had pictures frames for everyone that attended to sign.

The entire night was great, and I loved getting to see Ali shine after a year of hard work and preparation.