I used to be really strong, I mean I've always been able to handle whatever life decided to throw my way, but lately it's been not so great.
Maybe I'm exaggerating, but I'm starting to feel out of place in my own friend group. Truly. And I've no idea how to fix it at all.
My roomate, who has been close to me absolutely forever, suddenly doesn't want to spend any time with me whatsoever. Normally at night we hang out in our room and watch TV, talk, relax. And this week since we're moving into our home, I figured that we'd spend tons of time together moving in. However, it's not just that she's been busy, anytime she's been free she's gone out with everyone else in our friend group. Usually without me.
I tried to ask her to spend some time with me, I explained that I've been feeling lonely and neglected, but somehow that's done nothing to make her want to spend any more time with me.
My roomate, who has been close to me absolutely forever, suddenly doesn't want to spend any time with me whatsoever. Normally at night we hang out in our room and watch TV, talk, relax. And this week since we're moving into our home, I figured that we'd spend tons of time together moving in. However, it's not just that she's been busy, anytime she's been free she's gone out with everyone else in our friend group. Usually without me.
I tried to ask her to spend some time with me, I explained that I've been feeling lonely and neglected, but somehow that's done nothing to make her want to spend any more time with me.
The issue is, I don't know what else to do to make this any better. I've tried so hard, I've talked to her and everyone else about how I've been feeling neglected and un-included, and even that I'm starting to think I'm becoming depressed, but nothing seems to be helping.
I just wish I knew that I had someone other than Nathan that really cares about me and loves me. Because I'm really not good right now and I could use a couple real friends to hang out with and spend time with.
I could use some compassion, and someone to listen to me and tell me that it's all gonna be okay. Because it's hard enough with things go dreadfully wrong (chronic pain, TEP, stress, finances, and depression) but without a close group of friends to help see you through? It looks a lot more impossible...
I could use some compassion, and someone to listen to me and tell me that it's all gonna be okay. Because it's hard enough with things go dreadfully wrong (chronic pain, TEP, stress, finances, and depression) but without a close group of friends to help see you through? It looks a lot more impossible...
Sorry to be such a downer, I needed somewhere to post my feelings and I don't have anyone else to listen, so if you made it all the way through this post, thanks for your patience
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